"I've got a tight grip on reality, but I can't let go of what's in front of me here."

It's strange to say it, but I think I'm in love.  My boyfriend, Zach, is better for me than I could ever have prayed for.  This man is a gift from God, and he is my anchor.

Get this.  We went to a Creed concert recently, and I got a little anxious.  I had a bit of a panic attack, and Zach left our wonderful pavilion seats to sit on the much less exciting lawn.  And then he bought me a single long-stem rose, gave me some water, and lead me back into the pavilion to enjoy the concert together.

If that isn't a great guy- then what is?

So, here's the thing- I've always had a "tight grip on reality", and I have plans.  In a year, I have my heart set on attending Asbury University in Kentucky- 6 hours away from home.  I've always had this pretty picture in my mind of what my future is going to look like... and it never included being in a serious relationship.  I want to be with him- I want to alter my plans for him.  But it just isn't easy to change something your heart is set on.

I guess, when you're in love, plans don't really matter.  No one "plans" to fall in love, and love remains no matter what your plans are.  I'm learning to stop planning, start loving, and love leaning on the Lord for my future.

Who needs plans anyways?

I can't let go of what's in front of me here...

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