To Be Found

Lonely and afraid,

Broken and ashamed,

I wander through the valley,

Always knowing that you'll find me. <3

Today, a wonderful friend led me to the words of Hosea 2:14-15;


"Therefore I am now going to allure her;
       I will lead her into the desert
       and speak tenderly to her. 

  There I will give her back her vineyards,
       and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope.
       There she will sing as in the days of her youth,
       as in the day she came up out of Egypt."


This is where I'm at right now.  I've been allured into the desert.  I feel so lost... surrounded by paths and never knowing which one to take.  Somewhere along the way, I lost sight of my Maker and Guide.  I know that it's my own fault- it's always a slow fade, and no matter how much you say it came out of nowhere, you always know it's coming.  And yet, I find myself asking, how long, Lord?  How long until I hear your voice again?  How long must I roam the desert before I will once again rest by your life-giving oasis?  

How broken must I be before you will rush down to save me?

These are my questions, ignorant and arrogant though they may be, they all have something in common; Hope.


I'm getting by on hope and hope alone these days.  I have hope, and faith, that no matter how lost I am or ever will be, my Guide will find me.  Nothing short of His redeeming love can cause me to sing as I did in my youth again.  And there is nothing I long for more than to sing to Him that way once more, and forever more when I reach those pearly gates.  I don't know where I'm going, I don't like the looks of where I've been, and I can't hardly comprehend where I'm at...

So here I will wander and I will wait... to be found.

<3